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"Xander!?"
I groaned.
"Alexander!"
Slowly I opened my eyes to see Henry looking down at me with concern.
I tried to smile.
"'llo 'enry." I muttered
"Dear god, Xander, you've got blood on your mouth." I felt him dabbing at it.
"Do I?" I muttered, too tiered to do anything but lie limply. "must have bit my lip." I closed my eyes again.
"Xander, I think this is obvious now, magic is bad for you."
My eyes flew open and I sat up quickly. Henry jerked back, startled.
"No Henry. I have to do this."
"No, Xan you don't." he shook his head. "It's eating you up inside! When was the last time you ate?"
"I ate after work last night." I said, brushing his hand off, and leaning forward on my knees.
"Alexander, please." I looked at him again, and he frowned, pathetically. "I want you to be my best man at my wedding, when I have it; I don't want you to wear yourself out with this magic stuff. I mean, it was fun, and all, but it's not worth it."
"It is!" I retorted hotly. "Henry, I was right- they caught the wrong man!" urgently, I reached forward and grabbed his lapels. "What killed Edward wasn't even a man; but a monster right out a bestiary! A vampire!"
"You're crazed Alexander." he said, covering my hands with him. "You're not well."
"OH God." I slipped free from his hands, and lay back on the floor. "You don't believe me." I licked my lips, which were feeling paper dry, and tasted blood.
"Even if I believed you, Xan, and I'm not saying I do, no one else would. Stop destroying yourself."
I opened my eyes again, and looked at my oldest, best friend, and realized that he would never understand why I had to do this.