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i dunno
i really dunno why i'm writting .... i'm just wasting my time anyway but that's not what i really think. i'm sad now and happy i guess i'm sad because life is coming at me to fast.hell, i'm even thinking about the end of all my friendships these past yrs...i wonder how they will end? how .... mabey quick sayanaras or slow decaying ....stuff. i guess i'm happy because i've learned alot.it's more then just hating the world for being so happy in this terrible world filled with hypocritsy and ludicrausness.? spell chck pie processing pie 1 2 3...*beep* done spell check approved. i'm sorta happy because i don't have a soulmate...you know those people that really are meant for you... that way i can't cry about them and waste time thinking about them.well now that the one boy i truliy love is gone away to home school or whatever i can stop crying....about all the stuff he put me through without even knowing me ....mbey that was my problem...him not even knowing me*sigh* i mean why cry anymore?...though i must admit Cupid is a force to be reckoned with right? i'm glad and sad and worried and hurt and optemistic and pesismistic..i will always remember this"hope for the best but expect the worst"... ...and i always will.
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