Ahh so it's been some time since I've wrote in here. I want to just say some things I might want to remember in the future. I'm starting to get the secrets of love...I think it isn't so hard to unfold. I write about love in stories of ditsy girls who somehow find an incredible guy and dramas of a girl who pretends to be a guy to win the heart of a witch named alice.- there's also a new on of a guy who falls in love in the school drama club where he is romeo and is rehersing with a guy juliet. Why may you ask do I bring up love at a dull moment like this at 12 surprised 1 in the morning. because i'm a romantic teenager full of aingst and boredom. his name is nick, my best friend wants us together. i really don't care so much. that is i feel this relationship is going to be one sided. I'll try for the sake of josh-my bff- and for nick. he actually is pretty cool. he probably thinks i'm god- which i believe not. I am actually not that great. though right now i'm proud that i worked out till i sweated alot and it's a sunday. i'll see nick i promised to show him this funny face at school but i'm afraid it will be to emarrasing.
I'll try. that's what this love is..going byond one's comfort zone and actually trying for once. I don't really have any regrets so what the heck, may as well see just what the beatles were singing about.I had a summer love but it was so long ago I have a keepsake from it too. sticky notes i tore one out and put it in my locket and wore it to school one day but it opened up when i wasn't looking and the paper fell out. I miss him and I pray for him everyday to get the girl he truly deserves and not crapy old "i don't feel the same way" me. Where are you Robert? what are you doing now? fate is cruel yet sometimes we just have to sit back and watch fate or whatever the hell it is do it's magic. What am I now? Now that I'm healing from the wound Josh gehlhausen or really myself created. I remember seeing him the first day of freshman year and thinking omigod is that actually him? it's his hair which i suppose he straighten Bad josh Bad your hair was fine-perfect- the way it was.That was what really attracted me to him. cos he wore it curly one day and I had that feeling again that he was the angel from heaven sent down to tease and tear at little girl hearts. ahh but I'm emnding now it's actually been a while since i gave up. go april go. but every time someone brings his name up i don;t know it's like he's right beside me. it's like love. imma be okay though i just hope my relationship goes well with nickleton and that i don't break his heart...I don't care if mine is broken this is actually what i've been waiting for some kind of emotion. why not try? Mitch says my motives aren't very strong but i think it's good enough. I just hope it ends well for him. I'm not really a good lover if you will and i've already contimplaed on killing his mother this is gonna be fun. I'm going on myyearbook so I might find claire to tell her the news.
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