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i remember a time when i was greiving,not for death,for someone who had left my school.I remember feeling so empty and telling myself that he would be at school tommorow or the next day. I knew what he said "my last day of school, mabey my parents will let me come here until the end of the week".i knew what that meant. i continued on like a ghost.Not feeling, not wanting to. I concluded that to be alone for a second was a bad idea.So i sought comfort from friends and relatives.Not a week since his departure,what ev. i spell terribly lol,well, anyway, back to the subject.not a week since he had left, friday,i suppose, i caught him walking up by the school with two other ppl.they were coming my way laughing and carrying on.At first i couldn't believe my eyesso i inched a bit closer, only to conclude my thoughts correct.It was him.And i was all alone at a fence right by the school in wich i used to oggle about staring at him hoping for a "hello" or "what's up". My brother was charliw horsing around in the school lot with his friends and some of my friends. I thouhgt,if i run quickly, i could join them and hope to God that josh would accompany us laughing to an
extent that I could hear.My mind was racing as i stood dead on the sidewalk wondering what to do and what would happen in doing so. join them and possibly listen to to HIM laugh, which would be only a setback,he kwould laugh for me to never hear me again.Or to flee, to run away from the only person who ,in my unright mind, was the best person to walk on this eath, sorry Jesus.So, being the wimp that i am i fleed. I ran with my tail between my legs and the beatles"yesterday" playing through my ears,on my slick mp3 duh.the odd part was that i ran with my eyes closed and hadn't ownership of a tail. i ran until i nearly tripped on the sidewalk. that's a memory i hold, and will hold all my life all my lonely life boo who who.i guess i'm not completely happy with my choice,i guess i want to turn back time,who doesn't? I can do something about it. tell him i love him on the internet. but who does that,sorry danny. i am not doing a ******** thing but i haven't done a ******** thing and i'm proud.