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When I look at friends laughing together
I can’t help but be jealous
I have a total of three friends
All of which are online
One, I am unconditionally in love with
One who is absolutely amazing
And one who will not talk to me
I said one word
One word that was like a bowling-ball
Knocking down the pins
And not staying behind to pick them up
I said I was sorry
I didn’t mean it
And I told her I’ll try my hardest
To never hurt her again
She said she forgives me
But if she sends one of her friends to yell at me
I don’t think it’s true
The words were cruel
And I had no clue she felt that way about me
If she hated me so much
Why didn’t she leave before?
She told me she’d probably be back
I want so bad to close the door
And not invite her in
When she decides it’s time
Her leaving me has hurt me
More than she’ll ever know
I want so badly to hate her
I want to scream and yell
And tell her that she is being a b***h now
But I love her
And I don’t want to risk losing her
Forever
Because forever is such a long time
I have a total of three friends
All of which are online
One I am unconditionally in love with
One who is absolutely amazing
And one who I fear will hate me for forever