so i've been on this quest for a long time, or at least i've embarked on it enough to have experience, and i think i've made a few realizations. see, last night i couldn't sleep, cuz i had so much anxiety. as i sat and drew and wrote in my note book, i was worried that not only would i fail in life, but that i was failing in my present quest. after a lot of thinking (nothing was on tv. i had nothing else to do) i realized that it's not so much that i have to be happy all the time. it's that i need to learn when to take things so hard and when to let them slide. for example: going to my cuz's was a total suckfest. but i was happy, nonetheless, because at least i wasn't fighting with my cuzs. then i had to do a lot of cleaning and s**t, but i was happy, because at least i wasn't spending the whole day in front of the tv and i wasn't alone. so really, if i learn to do that all the time, and this goes for anyone who gets upset and anxious a lot, then i could be a much better person. and less stress can increase your life expectancy, which is the only expectation that i'm cool with.
and with that, i believe i'm done. so thanks for reading. i love you.
later
 the_forgotten_thought · Mon Aug 11, 2008 @ 05:36pm · 1 Comments |
