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hmmm... care for an activity? day 10 |
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ok, so i dunno if you guys read mine from yesterday, but i couldn't resist drinking soda today, because the water has a bad filter and i had a bad sandwich so i had to drink something and the only thing there was was soda, so imma try tomorrow. i know what cheese not to use.
anyways, i was at the doctor today getting a physical for marching band and i was totally embarrassed because my annoying uncle and dad stopped by to chill in the office. being the loud people they were, it was uncomfortable,cuz it was a new doc that i didn't know. anyways, once they left, my sis and mom (and myself as well sweatdrop ) were talking bad about my family, like my uncle and aunt and couple of cousins. and i realized how much, not only i can't stand my family, but i started to worry that someday i might be like them! and that was the last thing i wanted, cuz i've promised to not be a hypocrite, and if i were to hate them but be just like them... well, you know.
anyways, it made me feel bad, cuz when i was younger, i used to think of suicide and my own death (in a morbid way) because i hated my family and thought i was just like them. so i was wondering, i've promised myself to be nothing like the people i hate and to not be a hypocrite and a bunch of other promises and that helps me not want suicide at all. i mean, knowing that i can be better than i thought. so now i wanna know, if you wanna participate, that is, what is it that keeps you guys from committing suicide? i'm sure we've all thought of it, at least a little, so i just wanna know how you guys prevent it.
i'm not suicidal right now, of course. but i was just curious. still gonna beat my record! haha. mkay, thanks for reading, and if you comment, thanks! i love you guys.
later
 the_forgotten_thought · Fri Aug 15, 2008 @ 02:38am · 1 Comments |
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