and here i thought that i was doing so well. i assume that everyone reading this already knows about how i made a personal quest to become a happier person and constantly look at the brightside. well, half a month into my quest and i finally blew it. i dunno. there's no way to honestly feel after failing. i guess disappointed. maybe a lil annoyed (afterall, feeling annoyed is why i failed in the first place.) i think i'll restart tomorrow, cuz today's hopes are shot.
alex is calling right now, but i don't wanna answer. i hate myself when i'm like this, and i know that others prolly hate when i'm like this too, so i don't wanna hang out. i don't even wanna talk. i want today to be over. i want my life to be over. i wanna stop thinking like this. how about at 5pm i restart, cuz i can't wait forever. i don't even know what almost pushed me to the edge this time. me being stupid? me being a baby and not knowing how to cope with my life? how friggen lame! god, why can't i just ******** get over it?
i dunno. in 3 minutes, i've decided, i'll restart. i'll put up a new journal entry and i'll imagine that i have non-existent support again that will help me with my quest. no one really knows about it, and no one's noticed (or has said they noticed) that i've changed, so either i'm a great actor or i didn't do well the first time.
later
 the_forgotten_thought · Thu Jul 17, 2008 @ 12:48am · 0 Comments |
