ok, so i doubt that you guys read my last post (i put it up, like, 20 minutes ago) but i needed to start over. i failed at my quest after 16 good days. i guess today i was just pushed farther than i was ready to be happy about. so i'm gonna start my second first day by making a list of how i can make today totally kick a** so i will be able to restart in peace, mkay.
smiley 1: no one saw how much happier i was, and i want people to think i'm a good happy person. that's why i started my quest the first time. so i'm starting this one in hopes that i'll be even better, like, better than i've been since i was 9 (i started going downhill at 10 or 11, so yeah) this is my main motivation
smiley 2: mom left 2 days earlier than the rest of us, so i have to go pick up ash with everyone else on friday. i got totally annoyed today because i was faced with the reality that my lil sis IS coming home early and that mom DOES wanna be with her so badly. but looking at the brightside of this- mom just misses her, and prolly loves her equally. and ash might be nicer in the lil while she's here before camp cuz she missed us.
smiley 3: i don't have a close-range paradise anymore, cuz my uncle decided he doesn't like my company anymore and i don't have a bike. brightside- if i keep pestering mom, i might be able to get a cheap bike at wal-mart, granting me access to any of my friend's houses.
smiley 4: there's a lot of other reasons that i can't even remember cuz i've just been letting them slide on my last quest. brightside- i know i was going about my old quest all wrong, so now i'm gonna find a new way to make things work out.
well here's a step in the right direction already: this list demonstrates all the darksides of things so i'm starting off totally content. wish me luck, my few readers
later. ily
 the_forgotten_thought · Thu Jul 17, 2008 @ 01:29am · 0 Comments |
