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yo. i'm back from jesusfest. not nearly as bad as i thought it would be. i felt good for a while. like on friday and most of saturday, but then, i dunno. i kinda forced myself to shut off my emotions again. and it totally sucked cuz i realized that that was the stupidest time to ever want to shut myself in, but i couldn't help it. so i kinda started feeling bad, but hey, i'm a fake, so it was all good and i made people feel good, so that's all that matters.
anyways, yeah, i'm chillin. you know, i've realized i don't get bored anymore. but i'm beginning to think that's a bad thing. i mean, it's hard to explain. actually, it's not, i just dont feel like it. i don't think you guys feel like a stupid philosophy cuz i think i've had enough preaching for one weekend, even if it wasn't by me.
so yeah, i'm kinda just... i dunno. lonely? so talk to me if you feel the same way and we could be loners united.
oh, by the way. imma leave for about a week on tuesday, and i'm worried it'll be a bit of a suckfest, but hey, when your clinging to life by a thread of shame that your trying to transform into a ribbon of hope that one day you'll be happy and accepted, then everything's kinda suckish. so if you wanna talk, nows the time.
alright. no one's reading this. i know. just message me when none of your other friends are online, cuz i know that's what most people do anyways. i won't be waiting for your message cuz i do have a life, but it would make me smile, mkay?
later.
 the_forgotten_thought · Mon Jul 28, 2008 @ 05:05am · 0 Comments |
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