so today during the 15-20 minute reading period my school adds to second period, i got a bit off topic in my book. it's cuz, even though we're so different and the book's intended purpose was most certainly not to teach you any life lessons, the main character and i share so many qualities that i can't help but reflect constantly upon each chapter! anyways, as i was sitting there "reading" i realized that i dunno what i want in life. i mean, realistically. obviously i want the average things: house worthy of "Cribs", 15 cars, my dream job, abundant happiness, a family, etc. but i was thinking on the lines of what's really gonna happen, and i couldn't help but get depressed.
ok, so the main character was fired from his job after breaking his ankel and being unable to work for 4 months. he had to settle for perhaps the worst job possible in order to know his importance and have a purpose. but, i mean, is that gonna be me someday? i mean, what if i can't go to college, or i don't get to do my dream job and everything else that's second best proves to only be half as profitable and less enjoyable?
then my parents are totally on my case. for the next (i'm assuming 4 years) they want me to get all As. i mean, i told myself that high school is going to have a more challenging curriculum and to expect no less than a B-, but my parents REFUSE to accept that (or as my stupid dad says "reject" that) i mean, they keep talking about how it'll be hard, and i passed the eighth grade with one B. still, they expect all As? i can't work under pressure, and they know that! so why are they putting excess on me?
whatever. i'm done typing. i hate talking about the future and no one reads this anyways. later. i love you (even if you didnt read this)
 the_forgotten_thought · Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 05:35am · 3 Comments |
