yup yup. no one believes in me anymore! i'm already a failure in everyone's eyes, and i'm only 15! haha, i'm writing this confused as to whether its wrong that i laugh and brush it off or if i should be upset that everyone's already written me off as a possibility for the future.
don't get me wrong- it does bug me that everyone thinks i'm stupid and i won't amount to anything. Seriously, though, i'm not gonna be a failure. i'm just a freshman; let me ******** around for a lil while. i'm still passing all my classes, i'm not doing drugs, i haven't had any trouble with the law (or in other words, i haven't gotten caught up) so i deserve to chill wiht my friends instead of be told to come home and find that once i do, the house is empty.
I'm beginning to wonder if there will be a fight for me once the divorce rolls along- whos gonna get stuck with me? when i think of it that way, it DOES make me wanna laugh. i mean, get real, i got all these friends who want to be with me, i've got all these teachers who see a bright future, and yet my parents can only see what they think is bad in me and just cuz of that, they don't want me anymore! i'm not a quitter- hell, if i were, ida gone through with suicide in the sixth and seventh grade everytime it popped into my head. i guess it's not genetic though; its one of those traits that skips a couple generations or something, cuz they all wanna give up on me. and to think, i always thought i was second best in this fam. guess i'm fourth after my dog and everyone.
 the_forgotten_thought · Tue Mar 03, 2009 @ 03:09am · 1 Comments |
