i don't feel happy. well, like, yeah i feel happy when i'm around my friends, but once i come home it all changes. don't get me wrong; i know fully well that that's how a LOT of people are, but right now especially.
ok, so i ditched seventh period today and went home with my sis (we had to walk cuz she got a ride to school) and while we were walking, we got to talking. there was one point in particular, when we were almost home, that we started talking about that big fight that mom and i had about a month ago. things have been going pretty well with my parents, but it turns out that during all that time that my mom spends with my beloved sister, she's told her that she's still considering a divorce with my dad. here's the downside- she wants me to live with him if they divorce.
it's not that i don't love my dad, but the fact that there wouldn't even be a fight for me is kinda depressing. she wants to get rid of not only my dad, but of me! i know she resents that i'm a lesbian- hell, that was a huge part of the fight! but still, the idea that she doesn't want me anymore just cuz of it is kinda sad. i mean, i don't wanna take pity on myself, but that's really gay.
in other news, i ******** up my shin! jerry and i have been creating even more violent games and we were trying to literally kick each others' asses and when i went for his, he blocked my leg with his knee and both of us were shocked with how badly it hurt! i've already got this HUGE bump formed and it's getting color so it's gonna be pretty bad. it's all hot and swollen. haha, but thats what happens when your one of the guys. it's all good.
 the_forgotten_thought · Sat Feb 28, 2009 @ 07:32am · 2 Comments |
