my parents have this weird new-found hatred for me. i guess it stems from me not doing anything they asked me to today when they left to go to my mom's work. but hey, let's get serious, if they don't do s**t for me, why should i have to do anything for them? what was the last thing my parents did for me? they do everything they possibly can for my perfect lil sis, and yet all they do for me is talk s**t and make me seem like the demon child that must have been spawned from satan. i'm jesus's counterpart! haha, ok, no dark humor; i promised myself i was gonna try to be emo this whole time! no smiles allowed! haha
i never keep promises to myself. i promised to be a good student, and i got sent outta class first day of october. i promised to be good academically, but i've got 2 or 3 Bs! that's, like, my record for low scores. kinda disappointing. in fact, ******** me, i'm a retard who's ******** up my life! what the hell is wrong with me? second year in high school and already my academic career is down the tubes!
i feel like a worthless, insignificant piece of s**t who's parents don't love her cuz she's not worth the love. but hey, i'm not worth it. i'm not worth this computer that I bought, i'm not worth this soda that I bought, and i'm not worth this life that those poor fools accidentally gave me. ******** me.
luckily suicides not my style! i live to ruin another day! yay!
 the_forgotten_thought · Mon Oct 12, 2009 @ 04:47am · 0 Comments |
