i enjoy my life. i feel that i honestly do. i have parents that don't care, which means i can do just about anything i want. i am pretty smart. i have quite a few good friends. i mean, other than my self-esteem issues and home life, i really shouldn't complain.
i dunno. i have just felt really good these past couple days. i haven't hit my punching bag in an entire week!!! which means my arms are losing their strength, but it says a lot of good for my psychological health, which is more what i'm going for at this point.
man, tomorrow i have to wake up early for some band performance. guess what? i, who has the lowest self-esteem and suffers from an utter lack of confidence, have a solo. no joke. i was ready to shoot myself, and my face hasn't twitched this much in forever.
but you know what? that's tomorrow's problem. i know the music; i just need to remind myself that i'm amaznig and that no one in the world could look down upon my musical superiority. in other words, back into my world of lies. but whatever gets me through!
my mouth tastes like vomit... and i haven't thrown up since seventh grade. ICKY!!! don't mix white mexican food with soda and candy. just a bad decision, my friends.
and with that, i bid you adiu.
 the_forgotten_thought · Sat Mar 13, 2010 @ 04:48am · 0 Comments |
