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ah, i feel good right now.
overall, i had a mildly shitty day. i mean, i was bombarded with tests and quizes (one of which was impossible to prepare for unless you have a photographic memory; the other which was pretty easy but was a pop quiz, so i just didn't appreciate it). i told my math teacher straight up that i give up; i don't care if i fail cuz i know it's inevitable. i don't really care what he thinks about me anymore (he used to respect my defiance and perserverence and dedication to my education, but now i think he's lost some of that. honestly, though, he's a d**k, so i could care less). he just sat there and took it, saying s**t like, "Well, you passed last semester just by putting in that last amount of effort." to which i promptly responded "and i'm giving just as much, if not more right now, but it's to no avail, so i quit. i don't care if my cst's don't make you look good." and he just nodded. i hate when teachers nod at me; you don't understand, you're looking down on me, but don't nod and pretend you have any idea about what i'm talking about, cuz i know you're barely listening.
however, right now i am feeling masochistically wonderful. my legs are burning! i finally re-inflated my basketball and squatted while practicing cross-overs for about five minutes straight! i woulda gone longer, but my ball has an air leak, and it can only get so flat before it's unbounceable. but i did some other great stuff (found out i can only do my left-handed cross-over behind the back. for some reason my right hand always ends up with the ball hitting my a**) and i had a lot more fun than i've had by myself in awhile. the good news is, i had been deliberating about whether or not i wanted to stay in basketball or switch to soccer. question answered.
i guess right now i'm feeling good. the rest of the day was sorta meh, but it's how i feel now that i'm gonna try to remember, or how i felt first period sitting my my stupid stand-buddy, or how i felt when i was being stupid with my gf and katie afterschool.
PMDD had me feeling more angsty than i'm proud to admit, but i'm good now.
 the_forgotten_thought · Fri Apr 02, 2010 @ 02:46am · 0 Comments |
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