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sometimes giving up is the best thing you can do for yourself.
i've been putting myself under pressure trying to figure out what i wanna do. i've realized that despite my mild OCD and perfectionism, i'm still too lazy to "simplify" the s**t in algebra two that half my class can't even figure out, therefore, i keep getting my work back. then i try to think of what i'm good at; writing, philosophizing (which, no, prolly isnt a word, but it sounds good) and starting stuff. where can that get me?
i've decided that my talents would make me a good political speech writer. chances of that actually happening? slim.
i've been thinking, lately, i don't think i can get anywhere in life. or at least not get anywhere that utilizes my talents while simultaneously makes me happy. i mean, i love cars, and i'd love to manufacture them, but i dunno if i'm smart enough for that. and then i love to write, but i know i don't wanna do that for my profession; i like to write poetry, and if you haven't noticed, not many Poes out there makin money like they used to.
so today, i did nothing; no homework, no extra thinking. i played my sax, i talked with my friends, i ate ******** MC DONALDS, i walked around town, and i feel fantastic. first, after practicin and chillen with my friends, i went home, got some money and went to micky ds. as i was opening the door, i saw an old man with arm braces to help him walk struggling to get to the door, so i opened it and he actually said "howdy doo." got a kick outta that.
then later when i got too restless, i went to a gas station, bought an energy drink, and just wandered about town. i threw my can in some abandoned hobo cart and i felt good for doing that cuz i was finally recycling like i'm supposed to. somehow i feel like i've been good today, and i feel good. i see why so many people love church; it feels good to do the right thing. i guess i don't hate all people, i just hate school work.
sadly, that's not gonna help me get anywhere in my adulthood. still, i think i'll concern myself with such things later.
 the_forgotten_thought · Fri Nov 06, 2009 @ 04:13am · 0 Comments |
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